Infertility is not something people talk about. It is mostly kept secret to protect oneself from getting hurt. I certainly didn’t talk about it, until now.
After a period of trying and failure, I felt the need to express my sorrow and pain through photographs. I needed to give voice to our struggle in order to survive the emotions of loss and wanting. I needed this experience to be seen, to be heard and to be understood.
In the process of interpreting our journey, I came to the the powerful realization: our child was giving us the time to find ourselves. This path made us realize who we really are and what we want for the future. It made us conquer our fears and old traumas. It made us grow beyond the idea that a child would complete us.
Some say that children choose their parents and if that is true, we have been given the gift of time and self-knowledge. After over three years of silence I have decided to reveal the secret with my very personal series The Journey. My hope is to bring infertility out of the shadows and begin a conversation.
Ever since I was a child, I have always been known as being overly sensitive. I now call that same sensitivity a blessing.
Human beings and what they hide behind what I call “the mask” have always fascinated me. Nowadays, social media allows us to present a happy, carefree and always successful image, whether it is true or not.
Society dictates that deep and dark emotions should not be shown. Most people are scared to share their deepest thoughts, to make themselves vulnerable and to be judged.
In Attraverso (In-Between) I am exploring intimacy and human emotions. These emotions are expressed behind glass. The glass symbolizes a shield to the outside world, but its transparency still allows us to observe. The subjects are given their space, to take off their mask and just be.
Usually my mind races, thousands of thoughts all at the same moment... It is in nature that I find peace and quiet. In every plant, tree, flower, lake, river and field I see depth and beauty. Everything seems to make sense and I can take a deep breath. It feels like taking a walk through my life, but as an outsider observing and taking it all in.
At times like this when the world seems to have gone crazy, I feel we have to reconnect with nature. Have mother earth pull as back into the core of life, the center of our soul. It is only within us that we will find the answers...
Nature is the phenomena of the physical world collectively.
With Natura I am exploring these thoughts and expressing them through nature.
A rainy night, a cab driver, a mysterious woman and a ride through the night. Two people who have lost their dreams meet and share a unique experience. As unexpectedly as the woman appears so suddenly she leaves, but she has left something behind…
Written, Directed, Produced and Edited by Shari Yantra Marcacci
ROOM 411” or “The thin Line between Mania and Depression” is a visual diary, a mosaic of thoughts and emotions, a journey into the mind remembering three days which have left a deep trace in the life of a man, my father.
Written by Frank Marcacci
Directed, Edited and Filmed by Shari Yantra Marcacci
Room 411 The Thin Line Between Mania and Depression
A deaf dancer trapped in an abandoned weaving mill tries to free herself through dancing...